Category Archives: Shit happens.

Are we ever ‘ready’ to lose our loved ones?

One of my closest friends lost her mother today morning. Aunty was one of the happiest people I knew, always cracking jokes and someone who had an absolutely delightful sense of humor. She hadn’t been taking her pressure medicines from a few days which caused her pressure to drop alarmingly, which eventually led to brain hemorrhage. All of this happened in just 4 days.. Where ever you are aunty, may you rest in peace. I promise I’ll take care of A.

More than often we procrastinate. “I’ll catch up tomorrow” or “I’m waiting for the right time” or “After my exams or this particular date, I’ll spend time or figure things out”. Unconsciously, we take life for granted. So much so that life has to sometimes wake us up in the most unexpected of ways. No matter how much I do, I will never really understand my friend’s pain of losing her mother. We can never ever be ready to lose our loved ones..

A, you know I love you. I always have and I always will. I’m sorry but you have to bear with my lame jokes and stupid one liners which make you laugh none the less. Your wall will always be there. My extremely long bear hugs are reserved, just for you.

Always. :*

+ PinkDragon +


I can’t think of a good title, brain slip you see.

It’s been quite a while that I have been away from the blogging sphere.

Hellllooooo guys! These few months have been a hell-uva ride. Nothing is the same. Life does change after school but mine has changed way too drastically! I don’t stay where I used to. Equations aren’t the way they had been for years. I am not pursuing my Plan A for college and Plan B, though implemented.. is happiness none the less.

I am studying psychology honours. Course is challenging which btw is awesome with minors in English and HR. Even though college is all girls (KMN) , it’s not leading me to asphyxiation (as for now!)
College has been exciting, timings are exhausting and teachers make you work your ass off. As my college is located at the most prime location of Calcutta, we make the most of it. In every sense of it. 😀 And I have immense gratitude to destiny for playing its way so awesome-ly that we three; pk, vedu and me are in the same college though different courses but YAYYY! We’ve at least got a few classes together in the day and trust me, that in itself is a blessing.

It’s true. Life does change after college and you along with others, become so busy that it takes a while to comprehend what’s happening. Life just whizzes by and you are too stumbled to notice where everyone else is heading. But in reality you do, from a bird’s eye view take notice of it and the revelation strikes, that’s life isn’t it? Friends take their own way, different colleges different courses, we make new friends, stick to some old. No matter how much we try to keep in touch with about everyone from class, your schedule doesn’t allow you to, which eventually we all very gracefully let go off.

I have also realized in this while that it’s absolutely pointless to allow someone to make you feel bad about yourself just because you consider them as a friend or even at a time your best friend. No, no one has the right to walk all over you just because you care about them. That doesn’t give them the right to say mean things to you. I definitely don’t look like someone who might have a heart ( I have been hearing that a lot lately!) but man! I have got feelings. You cannot just come up to me and make me feel inadequate for things I don’t even have contributions in. And don’t mistake calling yourself a friend when all you’ve done is left when you’re supposed to stand there and be with me (at your personal discretion that too).. But nah, no more nonsense to be taken. Goodluck and goodbye!

After having an inexistent love life for ages, I have something to share. Even after a freshly filled vocab bank, I am still at loss of words to explain the tumble dee tumble dum inside my heart. Though things are slightly rocky at the moment, I know it will get better. I’ve also come to realize the power of positivity and positive thoughts. Not only do our actions echo, our thoughts do too. Have happy positive and vibrant thoughts, those vibes will definitely echo back from the universe. Like they say, take care of the small things and the big things will fall into place.

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“….. Love is not who you were expecting, love is not who you can predict. Maybe love is in New York City, already asleep, and you are in California, Australia, wide awake. Maybe love is always in the wrong time zone, maybe love is not ready for you. Maybe you are not ready for love. Maybe love just isn’t the marrying type. Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce, love is older now, but just as beautiful as you remembered. Maybe love is only there for a month. Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit. Maybe love stays- maybe love can’t. Maybe love shouldn’t.

Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to, and love leaves exactly when love must. When love arrives, say, “Welcome. Make yourself comfortable.” If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her. Turn off the music, listen to the quiet, whisper, “Thank you. Thank you for stopping by.”

Beautiful isn’t it? Love in itself is awesome. Awesomeness, I’m always here. You’d find me working my ass off for my psychology papers or hanging out at park street or interning with the best senior in town (fingers crossed for this one) and be in the process of implementing my million dollar idea or chilling with macaroons in my mouth and besties at my side or even catching up on sitcoms. You’d find me right on time, that I know.

I’m on my way to accomplish all my dreams. Step by step. And I’m sure in these three years I will figure out the rest about my dreams as well. Walt Disney says – “All your dreams will come true if you have the courage to pursue them.” No wonder I love that man! 😀

P.s – Hopefully I’ll be regular this time and soon do a post on why ChuckBass is the man! 😀

+ PinkDragon +


Some people are meant to be their own Super Hero.

I feel the weather acting up when I feel something strong. It’s like the nature responds to the tornado going on within me. Even though at the moment, everything is gloomy around me, I feel the sunshine pierce right through my soul. It’s asking to wake up to the call, the call that I have been avoiding from a very long time.

Why if I may ask is the wind acting up now when the temperature soars up to 37 degrees in the day. Why am I to deal with such extremities of life? Then there is silence. I can hear the silence. Something within me answers, in the most innocent and noble voice ever, “Isn’t this, what Life is all about; two extremities balancing its existence in the universe which we call ours?”

I look up at the sky, waiting for divine intervention to take me out of the pain I’m feeling. The pain of holding on when I know it’s a one way street and it probably will always be so. It feels like my insides mould into a small tortoise when I feel pain. My voice fails me. Stomach clenches and I go into the realm of silence. I prefer solitude to anything, even delicious chocolate frosted cupcakes don’t invite me. I observed myself very closely this time when I was hurt. The pain makes me cold to others. To keep myself safe from another round of being hurt, I protect myself. This protection seems cold to others. You know what’s the most hilarious part? The other person does something yet again, almost in a successive fashion that pierces right through me again and breaks my strength like you blow off a pyramid of playing cards by a phoo!

Why am I always secondary for the people who are always primary for me.
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The stars seem to wipe the crystals off my face and tell me that it’s okay to be all by yourself. It’s okay if at the end you’ve got no one but the stars by your side. I did my part, so what if people always forget to fulfill their in my life.
Cause I have always given and never received.
Yet I give. Not in the hope that I might receive someday.
But because, I love them.

Some people are meant to be their own heroes, their own superman.
You know what comforts me in the midst of solitary academic activities of studying and cramming all day long is this quote, “Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.” By Louisa May Alcott. I fell in love with classics after reading little women by her and now, getting inspiration for life by her quotes.

How can I give up on myself when the only person who’s been with me through thick and thin is my insides which took the harshest of storms with poise only to emerge more victorious than before? I love myself. Point Blank.

After being sure of my thoughts I get up from the ground with a smile and look at the stars to bid them goodbye, only to see the stars apparently smile at me back making my smile wider than before.

+ PinkDragon +


Boolean blunders.

STUDYING COMPUTERS IS NOT EASY. SCRIPTING IS NOT EASY. PROGRAMMING IS NOT EASY.

DID THAT HURT YOUR EYE? MY HEAD IS HURTING WITH SO MUCH OF JAVA AND PROGRAMMING!

BAD IT IS. BAD.

+ PinkDragon +


Just losing it all.

I’m going to go mad. With so much to study and so many projects to finish. And that nervousness of giving Boards for the very first time in my life and then also prepare for my law entrance exams.

I’m just losing it..

I need a few things. Like a miracle maybe!

* I need calmness. I wasn’t so nervous before. I might just soon have a nervous breakdown! I know all this will not lead me where I intend to go but I’ve got just SO much to do! Have to complete 4 Projects by this month! How do the teachers expect us to do it all in this one little month? I mean how?! Plus, this month has so many birthdays. All the birthday’s are of my special and absolutely loved ones’. Moreover, I’ve got to study too. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

* I need my self confidence back. I started off this year knowing how rocky and crucial all of it is going to be. Despite of me knowing all of this, I’m just getting so scared and all that jazz. I need my self confidence. Back and way stronger than before.

* Time management. I need to ask my procrastination habit to just FUCK OFF. I need to devote time to study and stop sleeping so much for Christ’s sake. *breatheIn&BreatheOut*

* Less of speaking. More of action.

It’s like my weekly target to devote a fixed amount of time and sincerity and just about everything necessary. I’ll tell you if I could do it or not. So that you can scold me ( I can do that on your behalf :P)

On a serious note, I am going to try my level best. In fact, not try. I am going to do it. I have dreamed big. Now is the time to work towards it.
Godmother Angel, please get me the awesome board results and and my dream Law school. I can really do without my Prince Charming for now! Just give me what it takes, wait I have that. Just give me what it takes to tap my potential and reach where I dream of.

+ PinkDragon +


The Wait..

Its just a matter of a few months. Then I’ll be gone and you’ll be stuck here, like always.

I wonder whom will you show your quintessential over the top attitude to?

I understand, your roof your rules.
Believe me, the day I’m gone, I will NEVER look back.
Neither to you nor your self centered self.

Like I care.
PointBlank.

X PinkDragon X


Growing up.

I have just returned home and believe you me, I am dead tired. DEAD tired.

Had my clat coaching which extended up to three hours rather than the usual two hours. Then i rushed back home, took my economics books and copies and left for my eco class. Then even that got extended from one hour to two hours.

ThankGod I met Rc on my way back. My exhaustion levels went a notch or two higher.

Apparently I have to study Economics now. At night I will. After taking a power nap.

Talk about growing up? And priorities maybe?

X PinkDragon X